finally.
...still loving you at 20:41 on 26 April 2005

sometimes i wish dat i had gone to heaven during my operation last year. i mean.. sometimes i juz dun feel like living any more. everything n anything is gg against me. if i wasnt a christian, i'll probably be one of those statistics which shows the number of teens commiting suicide every year. it's bad enough dat things dun go my way, but i still haf to keep up a positive front, even when it hurts so much deep inside.

enough of my depressing talk anyway.

finally back online after 11 days..it seems more like 11 months though..imagine spending 11 days without using a com. i almost died.

had to send my com for servicing cos i had enough of the frequent crashes n stuffff.. turns out the graphics card was failing (as i correctly guessed)..

but there's still a problem wif the fucked-up internet.
i was so pissed off one nite dat i went to call singnet's technical helpline. yah. n the first irritating thing dat happened was dat i was put thru all those automated voice machines.

dat wasn't the bad part. after dat, i still had to wait fer 15 minutes, listening to their pre-recorded ads, until an operator was free to listen to me rant. i realised dis is a great ploy.. most singaporeans wld juz be impatient n probably slam down the fone after 5 minutes... then they wld haf less callers to entertain... great idea, man. sad it didnt work on me though..

and if dat's not bad enuf, there was an indian lady who suddenly said "gudeveninsingnetbroadbandsupportrishaspeakinhowmayihelpu?" (figure dat out) while i was waiting. n after i told her my problem, i still had to endure 10 mins of her talkin in her rapidfire manner wif dat indian accent, tryin to solve my problem. obviously it didnt work out.

screw it. enough of ranting about singnet.

wore my contacts to school fer the first time last wed. umm..wasn't really a pleasant experience. everyone's reaction was more or less wat i had expected from them -_- after gg thru all dat, i dun tink i'll wear my contacts unless there's pe or sth..

adiós.

i've tried to go on like I never knew you i'm awake
but my world is half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

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